I'm Not Okay

I'm Not Okay

All the years that go by

All I can do is shake my head and sigh

Am I reminiscing or is it my PTSD

Am I losing it or do I just need to scream

Memories flashing before my eyes

Screaming as my mind dies

Enemies I have plenty to go around

Nothing is new it's the same sound

The drums beat for a war

I rather have a vacation or a tour

I need an escape from this reality

Everything I say or do becomes brutality

People misjudge and misunderstand me

People refuse to see the real in me

I'm almost wanting to write a fact sheet

I'm tired of my doomsday on repeat

When will I have a break?

I need peace of mind

There's no button to rewind

Live my life humble and be kind

Yet they use the rake

Here we go again ring the bell

Ding ding ding Round thirty

They play the game dirty

Ignore ignore ignore I yell

They're rotten to the core

Moved four times over the years

Because of attacks and lies

Can't go out to the store

Will, they ever get the bore

I'm tired of unexpected tears

I'm tired of the slurred cries

I want back my happy day

I want to say I'm fine

I want to smile

I want my time

All I see is vile

All I see is cybercrime

No, I'm Not Okay

©2021 By M. Robbins